loverboy
i need to be wanted.
i need to walk into a house unfamiliar
tangle fingers into hair that isn’t for work
press against lips that don’t belong to me
feel a warm body in bed that i’m not imagining.
i need to feel my heart flutter
feel the gravitational pull of another
study eyes and noses and cheeks
lace fingers together
giggle and sigh into the night.
the loverboy in my heart grows stronger and stronger
a hopeless romantic gnawing at my brain
yearning endlessly
the little girl who grew up swooning at shojo anime
has grown into a man swimming in rose gardens and testosterone injections
dreaming and pining and wanting
and as much as i want to kill him sometimes
he’s a part of me
and he will never die